Yesterday night I was working the floor and before Sally (the manger, my sister) left she asked that I help Mollie (my other sister) finish the truck since it came extremely late, once I was doing putting up all the candy and medicine. Finally, two hours later I was finished with that. So I went to see what Mollie needed help with, turned out she was almost done. She had me start picking up trash and boxes and putting them on a cart. I wasn't really paying that much attention and picked up some small bags of what I thought was normal ice and threw them on the cart.
"Hey, be careful with that. That's dry ice, it'll burn you if you touch it."
"Oh, okay, I didn't realize it was dry ice."
As the day went on, Mollie left and I had completely forgot about the dry ice, until I got hungry... Sally had gave me an avocado earlier in the day, I remembered about it, so I took a quick five minute break to eat it. I went into the back, back where all that trash was at and sat on the floor and ate my avocado. As I was eating it, I noticed something, a small chunk of the dry ice had fell out of one of those bags and was bubbling on the ground... I remembered Molly's warring about the dry ice. Yet, as was stuffing my face with the avocado I couldn't help but stare at the dry ice. I wanted to touch it. I wanted to see how it felt to just touch it. I knew it would hurt, but there was an overwhelming desire for me to touch it. I was auguring to myself whether I should or not. Finally, I just got up, told myself no, and walked away. Even then, every time I passed that chunk of dry ice I still had the desire to touch it. Once it melted all the way, I was disappointed I no longer had the opportunity to touch it.
I know I probably sound crazy for having such a desire to touch something that would only hurt me, but when you think about it, my story is no different then the way we are with sin.
James1:14-15 Temptation comes from our own desires, which entice us and drag us away. These desires give birth to sinful actions. And when sin is allowed to grow, it gives birth to death.NLT
I knew there would be consequences for touching it, which is ultimately why I didn't end up touching the dry ice, but so many times in my life I couldn't care less about what the consequences for my actions are. My desire was to touch something that I shouldn't, just to see what it
felt like. I was enticed and all I wanted to do was touch the dry ice.
If I would have actually touched it, I would have felt awesome, until the pain of the burn came. Sin always feels awesome at the moment, but once sin is over, once we allow it to grow in our lives, it just brings death, separation from God forever. Now, that's a scary thought.
Right now I have this huge sin in my life, it seems like it doesn't matter how hard I try, I always give in and touch that chunk of dry ice. I touch it knowing I'm displeasing God, I touch it knowing that touching it only brings me farther from God, I touch it knowing I'm not being a good example, I touch it knowing I'm being a hypocrite. When will I learn that I'm only going to get burned every freakin' time I touch the dry ice? I wish I could just learn to walk away from my sin just like I did with that dry ice...
05-27-2015
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